Tuesday, May 09, 2006

truth in angry words ?!

ouchness!

when you're really really totally beyond pissed, beyong mad, when you're in the rabies and rage mode ... thats when the truth about how you REALLY feel about things, comes out.

i used to think that if you were lucky, no one was there to hear what you rant about. but yanno ... maybe we would benefit if we had a convenient recording device to record what we say and really think and truly feel, so we could go back in a calmer moment and think about it ... cos haven't u noticed that we gloss over those feelings when we're not in the rabies and rage mode?

we forgive so many things that just infuriate, frustrate, upset us, and when we're truly ranting, we spill them out and they get aired. too briefly, in my opinion.

by sticking them back in that mental footlocker, what we're basically saying about ourselves is that our feelings don't reeeeeally matter ... that our needs, wants, and desires can go mold in that mental footlocker because they would hurt the other person if we let them out.

have u ever considered that, given the truth of the feelings, it might not be a bad idea to stop and ponder them? it might not be such a bad idea to express them, even?

*gasp*

oh my god ... we might actually communicate with those we care for most. we might even, for once, value ourselves instead of putting our feelings at the backburner to accomodate others.

omg ... the mind boggles.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

say what you mean!

go ahead ... spit it out ... you KNOW you want to say it!
don't you sometimes just want to whack someone upside the head and DEMAND to know what they really think??? i'm not saying people have to become verbal sharks or anything. just saying that people who just constantly say "whatever you want" set my teeth on edge because i guarantee ya ... somewhere down the line the second half of that is going to pop up ... "well, i really don't like that but YOU seemed to really want it." i HATE that ... don't be telling me everything is just fine perfect peachy keen, and then later say it suxxored.

three questions

  • How would you rank these six aspects of your life? (5=highest priority, 0=lowest priority, NO TIES)

  • a) family
    b) school
    c) work
    d) friends/posse
    e) significant other
    f) interests (i.e., books, art, computers, cars)

  • of these stages in life, which SINGLE stage do YOU think has the greatest impact on a person?

  • a) 0-5 birth to before school
    b) 6-12 elementary to pre-teen
    c) 13-17 teen
    d) 18-21 post high school
    e) 22-30 young adulthood
    f) 31-45 early middle age
    g) 46-60 later middle age
    h) 66+ late life

  • which statement best describes your view of mistakes/bad choices?

  • a) i made a mistake. it's in the past. get over it.
    b) mistakes happen. i don't know what impact it will have, yet.
    c) i don't make mistakes.
    d) if i made a mistake, it shouldn't be blown out of proportion.
    e) i really hate getting blamed for mistakes.
    f) people are too judgmental. they don't know the facts and it's none of their business.

    survival of three species

    check this out

    1. this species has been designated at risk due to the difficulty of completing the courtship ritual. the species' intricate courtship ritual consists of long-term extensive surreptitious eye contact with little or no physical proximity. both male and female appear to follow elaborate stalking rituals, and were long suspected of being magnetized to identical poles since it would appear that they are magnetically repelled upon contact.

      it has since been learned that physical proximity issues are indeed magnetic in nature, but that the presence of other members of the species are integral to their ability to achieve physical proximity. oddly, their courtship rituals are easily achieved through physical distance and, at a physical distance, the male and female of this species achieve intimacy.


    2. this species has been designated endangered due to its rapidly dwindling numbers. the males and females of this species tend toward higher intelligence and creativity, repelling those of other, lesser species. in part due to the higher intelligence and creativity factor, both males and females of this species tend to experience far stronger reactions to their environment and form far deeper bonds.

      the bonds this species forms with other, lesser affective species, tend to be transient in nature. bonds formed with other members of their species tend to be physical but platonic, members appearing to prefer a long-term mutual and deep kinship over the possibility of the angst of flame-out.


    3. this species is one that has only recently been observed and is in process of being cataloged. males and females of this species appear to be vastly accomodating and subservient to the object of the courtship ritual. from observation, it is suspected that the massive subservience is a part of the courtship ritual and that this behaviour will undergo an equally massive shift to the other extreme once the courtship ritual is completed.

      too little is known of the history of this species, as efforts to collect such information have met with a blank wall. observers believe there is an strong element of calculation in this, the extent of which is unknown. it is agreed that observation of this species is important to continue, as the possibility of its becoming a threat to other, native species, is a real possibility.


    based on the above ... which do YOU think has the greater chance of survival?